Sit down, take a moment, and breathe…

I am, on days such as these, a bear with very little brain.

I suffered greatly when my kids were very young from sleep deprivation. I broke two toes whilst my son was being breastfed, from walking into the large wooden blanket box in our bedroom, and didn’t notice until about 24 hours later the damage I had done to myself. I still suffer now, especially during the Summer months (this morning’s full-on Fox Cub War outside our bedroom window partly prompting this post) and it makes me realise how subjective I can become on too little sleep and too much caffeine.

I also find myself grasping some newly-awakened truths about my perception of the game in reference to the rest of the player base.

I had a blast writing up the Argent Tournament Guide over the weekend, and it occurred to me then that something that has become (to me) pretty much like waking up to feed a child in the middle of the night could be a new experience to someone else. It is easy to get complacent over time, to assume because you do something with regularity it will be simple for everyone else to grasp. When I went back to try and describe jousting, for instance, I really struggled. In the end I just did it every day for long enough for it to become second nature, and didn’t really analyse what actually happened in the learning. I am therefore very grateful to those with more awareness of me who were able to provide some constructive details of how things worked. It makes me realise I need to spend more time looking at details…

Then there are the moments when I get bogged down in what I can’t get to happen, rather than focussing on what actually needs to be done, which resulted last night in P running off a cliff and falling to her death, thinking she’d summoned her flying mount to avoid said grizzly fate. Archaeology is a pig: I know this, and its not as if this fact has only just registered, but last night I let the RNG get to me. These are the things that other people simply chalk down to acceptable variation and work through without getting all stressed and grumpy, and on most days I would be the same. I make a point to tell my kids that ‘using tiredness as an excuse is not acceptable’ and its true, you should never fall back on failings as a way to justify your actions.

Sometimes, you just let your perception distort the real truth that remains a constant.

Lots of you guys are new to this game and haven’t been around forever. Many of you are infinitely more patient and brilliant and awesome than I am on days like today, and take wonder in things I have begun (quite frankly) to take for granted, and I should apologise if, at times, I come out of posts looking like a grumpy old dwarf, but on those days that’s probably closer to the truth than I’d like to admit. This is where its wonderful to have reality checks like Twitter to remind me that, yes, other people do think that what I do is still okay and relevant, even if I feel like I’ve been hit on the back of the head by a large chunk of pine.

Every mount, therefore, should be progress and not feel like its an effort. Every dig gets me one step closer to my goal, and I will eventually get what I’m looking for. Patience is a virtue, and if I’m having trouble rationalising things in game, its probably a good time to go away and do something else… like write a blog post.

If you’ll excuse me, I think it’s time for a cuppa… :D

6 thoughts on “Perception Filters

  1. Dear Godmother,

    We are having a great time here at the Argent Tournament. Justicar Mariel Trueheart is making us all write to our sponsors in case you saw the flood at Sindragosa’s Falls on TV and worried. We are OK. Only one of our tents and two sleeping bags got washed away.

    Luckily, none of us got drowned because we were all up at the Shadow Vault looking for Chad when it happened. Oh yes, please call Chad's mother and tell her he is OK. He can't write because of the cast.
    I got to ride on one of the Covenant’s Mounts during the search and rescue. It was neat. We never would have found him in the dark if it hadn't been for the lightning.

    Justicar Trueheart got mad at Chad for going on a hike alone without telling anyone. Chad said he did tell her, but it was during the fire so she probably didn't hear him. Did you know that if you put gas on a fire, the gas can will blow up? The wet wood still didn't burn, but one of our tents did. Also some of our clothes. Bezzle Blastbolt is going to look weird until his hair grows back. We will be home on Saturday if Justicar Trueheart can find her mount. It wasn't her fault about falling off. The saddle was plenty tight when we left .Justicar Trueheart said that a saddle that old you have to expect something to break.

    Guess what? We have all passed our Mastery of Melee, Mastery of Shield Breaker and Mastery of Charge and have collected a lot of Valiant Seals and are Champions! When one of the Argent Squires tooted one time too many and was thrown in the lake; he cut his arm, we got to see how tourniquet works. Also Chris and I threw up. Justicar Trueheart said it probably was just food poisoning from the bad clams.

    I have to go now. We are going into Darnasses to mail our letters and buy bullets. Don't worry about anything. We are fine.



  2. @iometa: I'll pass those messages on. Don't leave anything outside the tents at night, the Valkryr have a habit of stealing stuff :D

    Thanks for the note and I'm glad you're getting the hang of things! :D


  3. Almost going insane from getting the Crawling Claw, my only advice is to take an Archaeology-break. I haven't done any for a couple of months now. :-) I know I'll be back eventually, but I hope I stop the second it really starts to bug me again. Even thinking about it makes me go “grrrrr”. Limit time spent daily or weekly perhaps?


  4. @Lael: Yes, I could take a break, and I have done several, but it always returns that the items I'd really like to own are the ones that take THE MOST WORK. It is a self-perpetuating circle of DOOM :D

    In good news, however, it give me something to talk to people about :D


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